You didn’t know me at all

And I don’t know myself well

But I know I put you through hell

Isn’t that what we’re made for?

Did I learn it all backwards?

I guess it’s all the same

And so we planted a garden

Gave it our burdens

Made ourselves martyrs pulling up the weeds

Tried to do it with grace

But damn, we made our mistakes, didn’t we?

It was all we had

It was all we had

It was not our fault that the wheels came off

It was all we had

So we fell apart

We were bursting at frayed seams

Worse than all my worst dreams

Ones Lovecraft would pity

Some nights I wake up

I don’t know where I am

I’ll reach out for your hand

But it’s never yours

I wish we could talk to who we were back then

Say not all the heartbreak is a means to an end

And that it’s alright to just give it a rest

Let yourselves rest

Cause it was time

The seasons passed, no flowers had grown

And maybe that’s alright

We’ll thank each other for letting go

Cause we defied it for awhile

Has to count for something, don’t it?

But I held on way too long

Couldn’t feel it slowly killing me

But I’m alive

I’m alive

I’m alive

I’m alive

I’m alive

(I’m still alive)

It was all we had

It was all we had

It was not our fault that the wheels came off

It was all we had