How Could You Leave Us - NF

Written by：Tommee Profitt/Nate Feuerstein

How could you leave so unexpected

We waited we waited

For you but you just left us

We needed you I needed you

Yo I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills

But I do know what it's like to be a witness it kills

Mama told me she loved me I'm thinkin' this isn't real

I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell yeah

Welcome to the bottom of hell

They say pain is a prison let me out of my cell

You say you proud of me but you don't know me that well

Sit in my room tears running down my face and I yell

Into my pillowcases you say you coming to get us

Then call' em a minute later just to tell us you not I'm humiliated

I'm in a room with a parent that I don't barely know

Some lady in the corner watching us while she's taking notes

I don't get it mom don't you want to watch your babies grow

I guess pills are more important all you have to say is no

But you won't do it will you

You gon' keep popping 'til those pills kill you

I know you're gone but I can still feel you

Why would you leave us why would you leave us here

How could you leave us here

How could you leave us why would you leave us oh

Hey

I got this picture in my room and it kills me

But I don't need a picture of my mom I need the real thing

Now a relationship is something we won't ever have

Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had

You should have been there when I graduated

Told me you loved me and congratulations instead you left us at the window waiting

Where you at mom

We're too young to understand where you at huh

Yeah I know them *** have got you held captive

I can see it in your eyes they got your mind captured

Some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing

And what you don't realize and what you not graspin'

That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand it

I ain't gon' say that I forgive you' cause it hasn't happened

I thought that maybe I'd feel better as time passes

If you really cared for me then where you at then

Why would you leave us why would you leave us here

How could you leave us here

How could you leave us why would you leave us oh

Hey

Our last conversation you and I sat in the living room

Talking 'bout my music and I brought you some to listen to

You started cryin' telling me this isn't you

A couple weeks later guess you were singing' a different tune

You took them pills for the last time didn't you

They took you from us once I guess they came back to finish you

Cryin' my eyes out in the studio is difficult

Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you

It took everything inside of me not to scream at your funeral

Sittin' in my chair that person talking was pitiful

I wish you were here mama but every time I picture you

All I feel is pain I hate the way I remember you

They found you on the floor I could tell you felt hollow

Gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles

You gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles

Don't know if you hear me or not but if you're still watching ma

Why would you leave us why would you leave us here

How could you leave us here

How could you leave us why would you leave us oh

Hey

Sometimes I think about like

Sometimes I think about things like you know

When I'd have kids I'm like

You won't be there you know

You won't be there for any of that

And I'll never get to see you again

Sometimes I wish I would've just called you

I wish I would have just picked up the phone

Wish you were here

I mean you should of been there for us

You should have been here

Them pills got you right

Them pills got you right

I wish you were here