Abandoned 2 - Rav/Kill Bill

My penmanship slips sloppy as all hell

Both feet dangle from the top of the guardrail

Street fight stance get up off of me dark well

Lost on the road tryin' to find if the star fell

Heavy as barbell his thoughts remained and dipped

Deep in construction but he lost the manuscripts

Break through the skull slide across the candle lit floor

No tellin' what's in store for the bore

Life is a balancing act that I can't keep up

But I'm rollin' with the punches by rollin' a couple trees up

It slows me

The solution turns to problems

Momma told me keep my head out

The clouds I hear it often

Now I'm dead to the world

Where my coffin

Catch me sittin' by the gravity bong

You heard it coughin'

Time to sleep

Seems like it's all that I do

I say I'm down to the death but

I don't talk to my crew

Man I'm with drawin' rippin' a big bong

A tall cup of haven't even made

It people sayin' I'm washed up

Y'all got me f**ked up

Literally

It's puff puff to get to sleep puff puff for energy

I f**ked up

Synergy lost I'm depressed

Feel the world crumble 'round me like it's all for the best

I don't f**k with you lames tryin' to talk and I'm stressed

I'm screamin' f**k the world from the top of my chest

Kill Bill is jinzo and jinzo will kill Bill

He change when the wind blows the windows are still filthy

Fog division the 5 7 split

That's a long division

Cuttin' it back just means

Longer spliff ends

Dead to the medicine

I've been fallin' victim

To my own evil deeds

Deeds deeds deeds

I'm just sittin' in the static of my own frequencies

I ask the voices when they'll stop they all answer Forfeit

Exploring this torment and dormancy it's morbid

Every one of my demons is now

My every fear mocks me It murders me to live in

The living room over dying world that

I wage war with

But I refuse to die in the world that

I was born in

Seeking peace of mind but my mind peace is torture

My existence and I'm trying to resist

It but it's boring

I've seen through their pattern first they

Laugh then run from me

It's like I'm tryin' to sell cigarettes

To these tobacco companies

But why do I insist to make them happy

When I know not

Of happiness myself sitting trapped within my shell

If that act alone don't seem backwards in itself

Then consider all my vices that keep damaging my health

It seems that I'll never reach the vantage on the shelf

And it's not that I can't reach it

I just haven't got the will

So what's the point then

Why seek a partner a house or employment

If you don't ever experience enjoyment

Then all the time you spent just gets flushed down

The toilet

Well

Don't find joy in pricey things clothes cars diamond rings

Y'all keep saying that I've been so dark enlighten me

Every expectation's just so large it frightens me

Tired of this planet but no star's inviting me

You tell me to speak up but

When I open up you hide from me

You're all happy or just all trying to lie to me

And so my dark refinery's still functionin'

Tryin' to punch through the walls 'cause I hope

To discover lots of cameras

Rav this was a hoax

This was all a ruse to you're worthy

Now you can live happily but the fact actually is

I'm still livin' on a planet

Where my self-interests don't matter

Where my selfishness won't vanish

I'm still abandoned

Still livin' on a planet

Where my self-interests don't matter

Where my selfishness won't vanish

I'm still abandoned