Cos I had the best of the worst sides

And I had these lungs

And I had too many flash fires

That I just let them burn

Till my chest is on fire

And my head just won't die

I guess I'm lying cos I wanna

I guess I'm lying cos I don't

Cos I just feel so tired

Like its move or slowly die

You ain't you when you're like this

This ain't you and you know it

But ain't that just the point

You don't know

How to let go

Who said this must be all or nothing

But I'm

Still caught below

And ill never let you know

No I can't tell you nothing

Cos I'm a f**king mess sometimes

But still I could always be

Whatever you wanted

But not what you needed

Especially when you been needing me

Cos I'm a f**king mess sometimes

And ill say what I don't mean

Just cos I wanted

Or maybe I need it

Swear lyings the only rush I need

Cos all I needed was some words to say

That all these feelings don't mean s**t to me

Cos its all just chemicals anyway

Anyway

And I got way to many routes to take

To make this all just go away

And find another heart to break

So heartless with the words I say

Just saying what I'm supposed to say

Cos I had nothing for you

I can't love when I can't even love myself

Things I would rather be thoughts at the back of my head but I'm addicted to hurting

And I got these lungs

And I spent too many late nights

Thinking a hole in the earth

Till the sky is on fire

And my head still won't die

I guess I'm lying cos I want to

I guess I'm lying cos I don't

Cos I just feel so tired

Like I need something to come alive

She said you ain't you when you're like this

This ain't you what you done

And I said that's the point

You don't know how to let go

Who said this must be all or nothing

But I'm still caught bellow

And ill never let you know

No I can't tell you nothing

Cos I'm a f**king mess sometimes

But still I could always be

Whatever you wanted

But not what you needed

Especially when you been needing me

Cos I'm a f**king mess inside

And ill say what I don't mean

Just cos I wanted

Or maybe I need it

Swear lyings the only rush I need