Arose (Explicit) - Eminem (埃米纳姆)

Written by：Marshall Mathers

If I could rewind time like a tape inside a boombox

One day for every pill or percocet that I ate

Cut down on the valium I'da heard everything

But death is turning so definite wait

They got me all hooked up to some machine

I love you being didn't want you to know I was struggling

Feels like I'm underwater submerged like a submarine

Just heard that nurse say my liver and kidneys aren't functioning

Been flirtatious with death skirt-chasing I guess

It's arrivederci same nurse just heard say they're unplugging me

And it's your birthday Jade I'm missing your birthday

Baby girl I'm sorry I f**king hate when you hurt Hai

And sweeties thank you for waiting to open gifts

But girls you can just open 'em dad ain't making it home for Christmas

Wish I had the strength to just blow a kiss

I go to make a fist but I can't make one I'm frozen stiff

I yell but nothing comes out I'm crying inside I shout

My vocal cords won't permit me I scream but it's not aloud

You put your arm around Mama to calm her wow

I just thought about the aisle I'll never get to walk us down

Never see you graduate in your caps and gowns

It's 'bout to be 2008 how's this happening now

I've got so much more to do and proof I'm truly sorry

If I let you down but this tore me in two

The thought of no more me and you

You gave me shoes Nikes like new for me for school

Doody I'm trying but you you were the glue that binded

So many things time I'd give anything to rewind it

I had to walk down my halls and constantly be reminded

By pictures all on my walls and I couldn't sleep at night 'cause

That image burned in my brain of you on that table

Me falling across your body not able to stand to save you

God why did you take him

I'm tryna keep his legacy alive but I'm dying where's Nathan

Little ladies be brave take care of your mother

Smile pretty for pictures always cherish each other

I'll always love ya and I'll be in the back of your memory

And I know you'll never forget me just don't get sad when remembering

And little bro keep making me proud

You better marry that girl 'cause she's faithfully down

And when you're exchanging those sacred vows just know that if I could be there

I would and should you ever see parenthood I know you'll be good at it

Oh almost forgot to do something thank my father too

I actually learned a lot from you you taught me what not to do

And mom wish I'da had the chance

To have one last heart-to-heart honest and open talk with you

Doody I see you I go to walk to you

And I can feel my soul leave my body and float across the room

Nurses lean over the bed pulling tubes out

Then the sheet over my head shut the room down

Girls please don't get upset I see them cheeks soaking and wet

As you squeeze hold of my neck so forcibly don't wanna let

Me go pillow drenched emotional wrecks

With every second each closer to death

But suddenly I feel my heart begin to beat slow

Then a breath machines go

Must've guessed the cheat codes to this sh*t

I'm tryna rewind time like a tape find an escape

Make a beeline try and awake

From this dream I need to re-find

My inner strength to remind me

Even if a steep climb I must take

To rewrite a mistake I'm rewinding the tape

I don't want it

I'll put out this last album then I'm done with it

One hundred percent finished fed up with it

I'm hanging it up f**k it

Excuse the cursing baby but just know

That I'm a good person though they portray me as cold

And if things should worsen but I bet you they won't

I'm pledging to throw this methadone in the toilet

Shred these old letters I wrote

All that old pathetic loathing closing credits can roll

I'm proud to be back I'm 'bout to like a rematch

Outdo Relapse

With Recovery Mathers LP2

Help propel me to victory laps

Gas toward 'em and fast forward the past

Consider the last four minutes as

The song I'da sang to my daughters

If I'da made it to the hospital

Less than two hours later but I fought it

Came back like a boomerang on 'em

Now a new day is dawning I'm up Tuesday it's morning

Now I know