To Be A Man (Mega Remix) - Dax/The Mediary/Shane/Skywalker DaVinci/Kaveman Brown/Hailey Dayton/Ben Becker/Brutha Rick/Romeo ThaGreatwhite/Phix/Atlus

Lyrics by：Daniel Nwosu Jr./Alex Nour

Composed by：Daniel Nwosu Jr./Alex Nour

Produced by：Lex Nour

I can't hide myself

I don't expect you to understand

I just hope I can explain

What it's like to be a man

It's a lonely road

And they don't care 'bout what you know

It's not 'bout how you feel

But what you provide inside that home

Too much pressure on my shoulders it gets tough to be

The person bringing in the bread and be the lover that you need

For self-care yeah I had to let go

I'd be lying if I told you that it never takes a toll on

My mind I need someone to save me

But I have to be the one who's saving you

When you're exhausted I'm a shoulder where you mend

Gotta stay strong what can I do when

I can't hide myself

I don't expect you to understand

I just hope I can explain

What it's like to be a man

It's a lonely road

And they don't care 'bout what you know

It's not 'bout how you feel

But what you provide inside that home

I know a lotta men don't feel the same

But I don't feel ashamed letting the water fall when my heart's ablaze

Daddy taught me that was how to put a fire out

So when I'm hurting I don't mind to cry my eyes out

I only have a few examples of a man in my life

And only one who made perfection life-like

So I try to remember two words when I don't know what to do

Don't forget Jesus wept and brother so can you

I can't hide myself

I don't expect you to understand

I just hope I can explain

What it's like to be a man

It's a lonely road

And they don't care 'bout what you know

It's not 'bout how you feel

But what you provide inside that home

They said it's all in my head and I guess that makes sense

'Cause everything I feel I keep in

'Cause it's different for men

We talk about our feelings we're called oversensitive

We're asked to strike a balance it doesn't exist

So we bottle everything up in our minds

We grow cold dark and numb as we slowly die

Ya ever wonder why it's mostly men who commit suicide?

We figure why not we're already dead inside

I can't hide myself

I don't expect you to understand

I just hope I can explain

What it's like to be a man

It's a lonely road

And they don't care 'bout what you know

It's not 'bout how you feel

But what you provide inside that home

You picked me up when I was broken

You pieced together words that were not spoken

You found a way to see me as I was

Even when the world hasn't shown you the same love

You're expected to do everything on your own

Provide and then hide all the feelings that you hold

But your heart is deserving now show it

I see you for who you are I hope that you know

I can't hide myself

It pays to hide yourself

I don't expect you to understand

I'll try my best to understand

I just hope I can explain

What it's like to be a man

It's a lonely road

And they don't care 'bout what you know

It's not 'bout how you feel

But what you provide inside that home

I know we all got decisions to make

But it seems that my decisions 'cause division

I hate this pride I break inside but I cannot cry

'Cause all I wanna do is provide

I was made for this I'm a father of seven

My oldest is 20 my youngest 11 and they all gotta eat

So I bury my feelings and stand on my feet like they told me

"Gotta be grown" they told me

"You're on your own" they told me

But we're not alone he showed me

I can't hide myself yeah

I don't expect you to understand

I just hope I can explain

What it's like to be a man

It's a lonely road

And they don't care 'bout what you know

It's not 'bout how you feel

But what you provide inside that home

Yeah patiently waiting for God to show me signs I need

I'm not the man for the job all the things I can't be

Put all my feelings aside

I think that I'll be better off when I'm not alive

Fought through depression for years and I tried to hide it

Almost put pressure and pulled it but I decided

To give it all that I can

But this what it's like to be a man

I can't hide myself

I don't expect you to understand

I just hope I can explain

What it's like to be a man

It's a lonely road

And they don't care 'bout what you know

It's not 'bout how you feel

But what you provide inside that home

As a man if you show your emotions

They take you for weak and this ain't nothing new

Teaching my son to be mentally strong

And prepare for the battle he ain't even two

Being a father is lit but I gotta admit

That sometimes I don't know what to do

Provide and protect was the name of the game I was playing for you

And you know that it's true

Unconditional love ain't reality

But you can't take a look from my view

A lotta my days were blooping and dogging me

So I fought and you didn't have a clue

When I had it we had it together

But now we divided your colors are true

I shouldn't have to ask for no help if you knew I was struggling

I woulda did it for you yeah

I can't hide myself

I don't expect you to understand

I just hope I can explain

What it's like to be a man

It's a lonely road

And they don't care 'bout what you know

It's not 'bout how you feel

But what you provide inside that home

I'm sorry I never knew

All the things that you go through

I never meant to put your pain aside

Didn't mean to make you need to hide

Those demons in your head they'll tell you you're less than

But I'm here to tell you that you're more than perfect

And don't let the voices make you think you're worthless

'Cause you're worth it you've got this

I can't hide myself

I don't expect you to understand

I just hope I can explain

I just hope I'll understand

What it's like to be a man

It's a lonely road

And they don't care 'bout what you know

It's not 'bout how you feel

But what you provide inside that home

There's just a lot I wanna say

To be a man requires you to hide the pain

You find yourself inside a hole you can't get out

Even though you wanna shout

'Cause the pain is just unbearable oh no no

I just wanna cry and be given a hug

And be told everything will be okay

Mara ngauri nne ndiwa munna

Hezwo azwi konadzei

I have a family that depends on me oh

I can't hide myself

I don't expect you to understand

I just hope I can explain

What it's like to be a man

It's a lonely road

And they don't care 'bout what you know

It's not 'bout how you feel

But what you provide inside that home

Look as a man they expect you to be strong as someone to lean on

No matter what you're dealing with

I just lost a couple friends to *** and

When I woke up in the morning man I really wasn't feeling it

But I gotta try to bottle the pain

But when they took my son away

I had to try to find a will to live

Putting five whole years at a job

Then I got laid off and the news had me feeling sick

I've been drowning in the deep end

Anybody wanna give me a reason?

I don't even try to bother with a social life

'Cause I would rather be alone on the weekends

Chilling with my demons and I just to suppress the depression

In need of a blessing 'cause I'm really 'bout to lose it all

Just remember that I tried to be a man

When you lose me y'all and I'm gone

I can't hide myself

I don't expect you to understand

I just hope I can explain

What it's like to be a man

It's a lonely road

And they don't care 'bout what you know

It's not 'bout how you feel

But what you provide inside that home