Yeah look

Let me tell you about

A kid named Steven

He's slowly running out

Of things to believe in

Every couple of months

His mom leaves him

For no good reason

His step-dad beats him

Not too many friends

Only ever had a few of them

But recently they don't want

Anything to do with him

Always eating lunch

In the bathroom stall

He just wants to feel normal

And be cool again yeah

Always feeling like the outcast

He's been going crazy

Ever since his dad passed

He needs guidance

And advice but instead

He only has breakdowns

And flashbacks of the car crash uh

It's been getting harder everyday

If he was still around

Everything would be ok

Cuz his dad was always the light

At the end of the tunnel

But now that same damn tunnel

Is looking dark and grey

He keeps quiet in the back of the class

And when the bell rings

Steven hurries home fast

Scared to death the other kids

Will kick his a** on the long walk home

Cuz its happened in the past so

He's getting used to

The black eyes and fat lips

But all he's got is a fake smile and cut wrists

Wishin' he could walk right up to them

And show them the scars

And say look you're the reason

That I've done this

Maybe they would finally understand

And go back to how it was before it all began

But he's just a little different

So they taunt him and they beat him

Yeah it's all just fun and games

They don't give a damn yeah

His older brother ain't around

In and out of jail

Hanging with the wrong crowd

He's been doing coke smoking w**d

Getting drunk all his life he's a shame

No he's not too proud

Now his habits are rubbing off

On his little bro yeah

But guess what

Little did he know

That everytime he did a line

Everytime he lit a joint

Everytime he took a shot

He was sippin mode

So Steven's sitting in his room

Getting high now

Doors locked music up

With his lights out

He just takes another tote

Til his room fills with smoke

5-6-7 hours til he knocks out

Now he started stealing pills from his mom

8-9-10 at a time and now they're gone

And maybe for a moment

All his problems seem to fade

But the high fades too after not too long

And that's when it really sinks in

And that's when it hits him

That these god damn *** won't fix him

Curled up on the floor

Can't take it anymore

Now he's talking to God

Cuz he's the only one that gets him

On his knees looking up

Can't stop crying

"God I know we haven't talked in a long time

But this time I really need you

Please God help me say something

Just give me a sign

Because now I'm falling apart and

I don't think that I can do it

Please God give me the strength

To pull through it Tell me

Should I give up

I could end it all right now

I just don't know

If I'm brave enough to do it

Cuz there's gotta

Be a better way than suicide

Try to wait it out

Give it time you'll be fine

But it's been so long

And I still haven't been able to get rid

Of all the thoughts that I feel inside

So sick so angry so mad

And to top it off no one even knows that"

That's when he stood up

Wiped his tears

Walked over to his desk

And got a pen and a notepad

He just couldn't see it getting any better

So on a cold dark night in December

Steven knew exactly

What he had to do

But first he sat down

And wrote a couple letters

One to his step-dad

One to his mother

Couple to the kids at school

One to his brother

Bringing them the pain

That they once brought him

Tear drops on the paper one after another

Yeah I hope that you all feel guilty

Cuz I'm broken now

And you can't heal me

And now you're all an accompliss in murder

Each and every one of you

Has chipped in to kill me

So the reason that

I'm writing you this evening

Is to say goodbye

And to tell you that I'm leaving

But don't hold your breath

Cuz I ain't never coming back

Sincerely yours Steven