There's a reason why I never drank a double shot martini slightly dirty

I stop breathing when I'm getting close to diagnosing what I already know

I could never ask for help

Thought I should just hate myself

I got a feeling if I leave in the morning

All of my demons are coming for me

I try so hard to think I'm not my father

I forget about what makes me who I am

I try so hard to think I'm not a goner

Mm but I'm still here where it began

What we had was a lie

But I wouldn't take it back

What we could have had if you tried

But we couldn't make it last

I've been keeping on with the music

So if he's out there

Maybe he might hear it

I've been seeing every single movie

From the one with George Clooney

What are you doing he said back in 2010

Back of the theater his face was red

But I don't ever wanna' change a thing

That made me stand on my own two feet

I try so hard to think 'm not my father

I forget about what makes me who I am

I try so hard to think I'm not a goner

Oh but I'm still here where it began

What we had was a lie

But I wouldn't take it back

What we could have had if you tried

But we couldn't make it last

It's okay to cry it's okay to laugh

It's okay to be happy when 'm told 'm supposed to be sad

I don't miss the fights when it got bad

No I don't miss a single thing about my old man

But what we had

What we had

And I wouldn't take it back

What we could have had if you tried

But we couldn't make it last