I've woken up cold

Feeling like the loneliest boy in the world

Waking up freezing

Knowing that you're gone

I'm woken up sick to stomach

Knowing I can never see you again

Waking up so lonely

Knowing that you're gone

I'm having one way conversations with you inside my head

Repeating those words

That f**king kill me to have never said

It's these thoughts that I carry with me

It's that knot in my stomach, it's the pain that surrounds me

I just wish I could say this to you

That after everything that you put us through

I thought that the worst in me was everything that I got from you

(I just missed the chance to tell you)

If I scream loud enough, do you think you could hear me?

And I could tell you one last time how much you meant to me

And how just one little word would help me write a better ending

And I could tell you one last time how much you meant to me

And I could say that I tried my best, and it would help me put you to rest

There is a light and it guides us through

All the heartache that life decides to throw at you

Now I can sing our songs

So much louder than before

They will keep you with me

The soil won't matter any more