State Of Mine - Sebadoh

They've got the calves of champions

They greet the warmest way

They are the dads the main ones

They've got some money saved

Yeah I'm sorry but I don't

Another kind of classroom

Another shade of fear

Another door you're shoved through

Until you conquer your fear

And I wonder if I won't

To let the children go

To feel themselves to hurt and grow

It's the hardest thing I've done

And I haven't even done it yet

Thought I was wise averted my eyes

Avoided the light went head down thru it

But I was wrong I've gotta be strong

And hold my head up high

Failure is a state of mine

Back in Massachusetts

In my familiar role

Afraid to make decisions

But had to test my soul

The girl wanted to live here

And I follow my love

Came to California

Enough was never enough

Yeah row by row by row

To let the children grow

To feel it themselves

To hurt and grow

It's the hardest thing I've done

And I haven't even done it yet

Thought I was wiser

Averted my eyes

Avoided the life with head down through it

But I was wrong

I gotta be strong and hold my head up high

Failure is a state of mine