i hate that i love you (Explicit) - Dax

Lyrics by：Daniel Nwosu Jr./Eric Klem/Andrew Peterson

Composed by：Daniel Nwosu Jr./Eric Klem/Andrew Peterson

Produced by：Backnine Z/Paramind

I remember what you said

That **** tore me to peices

That I was something that you wanted

But not really needed

I used pray for someone like you

Could of sworn I was dreaming

Then I woke up and I realized

You were one of those demons

Now I'm contemplating life

And wondering what's ahead

If it's without you

I might choose to not live it instead

You gave me life

And without you

I ******* feel like I'm dead

And as I'm writing this song

I'm currently trapped in my head

And now it's dead weight

Ya it hurts

I don't understand why we just couldn't work

Wish that we could speak

But I can't find words

You know that I'm hurt

And you don't care

And that just makes it worse

So when I see you smile

I fill my cup and write another verse

Battling myself and evil thoughts

Tried to spend my life with you

I didn't know what it would cost

Should of never came to Cali

Never opened up my heart

Wish I never found love

Cuz I never would of lost

This this everyday

Ask myself why didn't she stay

Looking up to heaven

Asking god to take away this pain

I know that I love you

And I know that you don't feel the same

And that's what's killing me inside

And causing me to go insane ****

Said we're too different

Told me we would never work

Always put me second

I would sprint but couldn't finish first

Got to comfortable and let my guard down

When you realized I did

You took my feelings

And you threw 'em in the ******* dirt

Matching tattoos

I can't believe that you convicned me

Now you're gone

And it's the only thing

That keeps you here with me

Ya hate you but I love you

You left but still see me

If you needed it right now

I'd still give you my kidney

I'm lost

Can't wanna see another woman I'm blind

And if I do gods gonna have to

Pry open my eyes

You gon' laugh and say I'm weak

Until you realize and find

That sharing love is the meaning

And whole purpose of life

And when you do and hear this song

You will cry and sing along

And realize that

You don't wanna die old alone

And I'll be here still writing on my phone

Isolated in my home

Drunk half way gone screaming

I still love you

And wouldn't put no one above you

Even though you ******* lied

Something in me still trusts you

I would die for you kill for you

End my whole career

They could cut off both my arms

And I'd still find a way to hug you

I don't mean to make this music

But it's something that I must do

**** you

I ************* hate that I love you

I only run to you cause I can't run from you

You took my child away

He was my ******* son too

I hate that I love you

I hate that I love you