Survivors Guilt (Explicit) - Joey Bada$$

Lyrics by：Jo-Vaughn Virginie/Columbus Smith III/Michael C. Flowers

Composed by：Jo-Vaughn Virginie/Columbus Smith III/Michael C. Flowers

I thought I was goin' crazy you know

And like I realize that I wasn't the one that was crazy

I realized that it's the system that was built against me you know

And like I'm not supposed to be talkin' about this

And that's the corruption of it because like me just saying it's it's absurd

And I want people to open up their eyes and realize that I'm not wrong you know

I-I'm I'm just a openminded individual and people should be more openminded

If-If we tryna build up our lives to have material things

And those don't satisfy our needs what are we living for

Right right come on

Alright

This one is for you uh-ooh

This one is for you uh

Is for you for you for you

This one is for you uh-ooh

This one is for you uh

Is for you for you for you

Steezy told me Get 'em so I got 'em

Got 'em

Now my n***a gone he will never be forgotten

Never

Ever since he left I just been strugglin' without him

Uh-huh

'Cause I remember linkin' after school and we'd be plottin'

Plottin'

Talk about our problems and what we do about 'em

Yeah

Journalin' and jottin' we ain't know the world was watchin'

Facts

We was just two kids tryna make it out the bottom

Uh-huh

Now I'm rich and rotten everyday I think about him it's survivor's guilt

Wishin' I coulda stopped him let alone just know how he feel

Lyrically couldn't top him he was the n***a with the belt

Uh-huh

Yeah and that's real rap

I couldn't do this ****without him and that's just fact

You see if you ain't know Steelo then you really don't know me though

No

And that's how I separate all the real from fake people

Yeah

Or the real from fake fans

Uh-huh

Who claimin' that they stans

Uh-huh

But they ain't know my mans

No

Until the very end wish he was still here I swear it feels weird

How people could accuse me for his death

Sometimes I gotta shed a real tear

Tear

You see the truth about Steelo he lacked the mental health

He did

But try to tell that to people way back in 2012

I can't

But now that it's a mainstream topic

I'm guessin' I can finally open up and talk about it

So yeah let's talk about it

Yeah

Come into my mind I show you where the darkest cloud is

You ready

I doubt it but let's go

You see Steelo was my bigger bro

Uh-huh

At a point in time spiritually we was in the same boat but

I wanted to take it slow

He wanted to take it as fast and deep as he could go pause

Yeah we had some problems but what brothers don't

Sure

Then I caught a little wave and headed back to shore

And that's when he started drowning

And he had no one around him so partially I feel it's my fault

Hey

And that right there is my internal war

Uh-huh

The reason why I got to feel these external flaws

The reason why I can't heal this eternal loss

The reason why I gotta feel this survivor's remorse

Shh

And here's a message to his fam

I know y'all got emotional trauma that I understand

I understand

But I couldn't ****with y'all try to tell the world I wasn't who I am

When all I ever tried to do was lend a hand

That wasn't cool

And give the fans the thing that they demand the most

King Capital the ****ing G O A T word

I'm just tryna get my n***a heard

Give him what he deserves

This one is for you uh-ooh

This one is for you uh

Is for you for you for you

This one is for you uh-ooh

This one is for you uh

Is for you for you for you

Yeah and R I P my cousin Junior B

R I P

Y'all ain't know too much about him so it's up to me

It's up to me

To share his legacy with the world

It kills me to think he'll never meet my baby girl

Shh

And when I lost Jun' that hurt me in the worst way

Worst way

He even died two days before his birthday

His birthday

D**n that brings tears to my eyes

My n***a really never made it up to twenty-five

D**n

That's why I'm thankin' God every time I open my eyes

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Add the fact that we alive and we feelin' these vibes

Vibes

'Cause we be fillin' these voids part of me got destroyed

Facts

When I lost my boys it's like I lost my voice

Uh-huh

It took me all of this time just to put it in a song

Song

Because I'm still dealin' with the fact my n***as is gone

Yeah

Write they names up on the clouds 'cause that's where they belong

Uh-huh

As long as I live on they'll forever be known this one for you

This one for-yeah

This one is for you uh-ooh

This one is for you uh

Is for you for you for you

Long as you'll forever be known this one's for you

This one is for you uh-ooh

This one is for you uh

Is for you for you for you

This one is for you uh-ooh

This one is for you uh

Is for you for you for you

Yeah I'm off the I'm off the DeLéon neat DeLé-honest

So I'ma make this quick you know

Pastor Black Lip back on that s**t

True story look so I'm in New York my first time

One of my first times that I'm I'm playin' my-my

One of my first albums for the big homie

And he got these kids in there they just on skateboards

I'm like Yo this super cool

This this guy got the kids out here you know

Keepin' the kids off of the streets right

So fast forward a year later I go back to New York

And then I meet this kid he's like Yeah man

I don't know if you remember me me and my homies the Pro Era

Crazy I was like Oh yeah wha-what's your name

He said Capital STEEZ I said Oh okay fosho

Fast forward my boy Doe called me Doe Burger Ahaha

That n***a called me and say Yo you heard these kids

The Pro Era

Joey Bada$

I'm like Yeah yeah I met the kid Capital STEEZ they crazy

Fast forward another year or so I'm on tour with Joey

We been 47 ever since man

We got that ****tatted on us man for life man

Tryin' to show the move man you know

Everything come back around full circle you know what I mean