Breakdown (Explicit) - J. Cole

Lyrics by：Jermaine Cole/Eero Koivistoinen

Composed by：Jermaine Cole/Eero Koivistoinen

Yeah

Yeah

Look I just shed tears homie

And no I ain't too proud to admit it

Just seen my father for the first time in a minute

When I say a minute I mean years man

D**n a whale could have swam in them tears fam

'Cause as I left 'em I reflected on my younger days

When it was just me and my brother and my mother played

Father 'cause no other man bothered

Not even my biological it never seemed logical

But I accepted it 'cause I ain't know no better

Thought I was brighter than a Polo sweater

No pops was like Martin with no Coretta

So many things you could have told me

And saved me the trouble of letting my mistakes show me

I feel like you barely know me

And that's a shame 'cause our last name is the same

That blood type flowing through our veins is the same

My mama left you and it may be that anger's to blame

But that's no excuse only you and God know the truth

On why you only called monthly barely ever saw me

Spend some summers with you and played with my cousin Maury

Maybe I should be telling you "f**k you" 'cause you selfish

But I want a father so bad I can't help but

Break down

I break down

Can't help but break down

I break down

Yeah I never thought I'd see my mama on that s**t man

It's f**king with her body now she sick d**n

I wanted a big house with a white picket fence and a pool

Who would have ever thought that it would come to this man

Quicksand is what this life feel like

That s**t these rappers kick is nothing like real life

You made a milli off of serving hard white

Yeah right

My mama tell you what addicted to that pipe feel like

Stupid n***as I heard the cops be shooting n***as

I swear to God wish I could bulletproof my n***as

Can't get no jobs but they still recruiting n***as

We trying to stand tall when it get too crucial n***as

Break down we break down

We break down we break down

Break the break down

Yeah he's serving time locked down

And she don't want nobody to know

His daughter 25 pounds

By the time he get out she gon' be 4

Now will his girl stay down

Ain't no doubt she love him yeah that's for sure

But temptation stays round

And if she strayed how could he ever know

Never know

And so she goes to the club on the weekend

A little freaking but them n***as holla but she never speakin'

But tonight I see the devil creeping

'Cause she been lonely she ain't felt a man in seven seasons

D**n she doin the best that she can

Her mama tellin' her to find another man

She college educated with a felon boyfriend

That's what she thinkin' tonight

Maybe she's right but please

Stay down mama

Gotta be strong don't break down mama

Please

Stay down mama

Gotta be strong don't break down mama

Don't break down

Yeah don't break down

Don't break down

Don't break down

Uh break the break down