Mother I Sober (feat. Beth Gibbons of Portishead) (Explicit) - Kendrick Lamar (肯德里克·拉马尔)/Beth Gibbons

Lyrics by：Beth Gibbons/Kendrick Lamar/J. Pounds/M. Spears/Daniel Tannenbaum/Sam Dew/Stephen Lee Bruner

Composed by：Beth Gibbons/Kendrick Lamar/J. Pounds/M. Spears/Daniel Tannenbaum/Sam Dew/Stephen Lee Bruner

Kendrick Lamar：

I'm sensitive I feel everything I feel everybody

One man standin' on two words heal everybody

Transformation then reciprocation karma must return

Heal myself secrets that I hide buried in these words

Death threats ego must die but I let it purge

Pacify broken pieces of me it was all a blur

Mother cried put they hands on her it was family ties

I heard it all I should've grabbed a gun but I was only five

I still feel it weighin' on my heart my first tough decision

In the shadows clingin' to my soul as my only critic

Where's my faith

Told you I was Christian but just not today

I transformed prayin' to the trees God is taken shape

My mother's mother followed me for years in her afterlife

Starin' at me on back of some buses I wake up at night

Loved her dearly traded in my tears for a Range Rover

Transformation you ain't felt grief 'til you felt it sober

Beth Gibbons：

I wish I was somebody

Anybody but myself

Ooh I wish I was somebody

Anybody but myself

Kendrick Lamar：

I remember lookin' in the mirror knowin' I was gifted

Only child me for seven years everything for Christmas

Family ties they accused my cousin "Did he touch you Kendrick"

Never lied but no one believed me when I said "He didn't"

Frozen moments still holdin' on it hard to trust myself

I started rhymin' copin' mechanisms to lift up myself

Talked to my lawyer told me not to be so hard on myself

He has an aura I hope to achieve if I find some help

Congratulations made it to be famous still I feel uneasy

Water watchin' live my life in nature only thing relieves me

Spirit guide whisper in my ear tell me that she sees me

"Did he touch you" I said "No" again still they didn't believe me

Mother's brother said he got revenge for my mother's face

Black and blue the image of my queen that I can't erase

'Til this day can't look her in the eyes pain is takin' over

Blame myself you never felt guilt 'til you felt it sober

Beth Gibbons：

I wish I was somebody

Anybody but myself

Ooh I wish I was somebody

Anybody but myself

Kendrick Lamar：

I was never high I was never drunk never out my mind

I need control they handed me some smoke but still I declined

I did it sober sittin' with myself I went through all emotions

No dependents except for the one let me bring you closer

Intoxicated there's a lustful nature that I failed to mention

Insecurities that I project sleepin' with other women

Whitney's hurt the pure soul I know I found her in the kitchen

Askin' God "Where did I lose myself

And can it be forgiven"

Broke me down she looked me in my eyes "Is there an addiction"

I said "No" but this time I lied I knew that I can't fix it

Pure soul even in her pain know she cared for me

Gave me a number said she recommended some therapy

I asked my momma why she didn't believe me when I told her "No"

I never knew she was violated in Chicago I'm sympathetic

Told me that she feared it happened to me for my protection

Though it never happened she wouldn't agree

Now I'm affected twenty years later trauma has resurfaced

Amplified as I write this song I shiver 'cause I'm nervous

I was five questioning myself 'lone for many years

Nothing's wrong just results on how them questions made me feel

I made it home seven years on tour chasin' manhood

But Whitney's gone by time you hear this song she did all she could

All these women gave me super powers what I thought I lacked

I pray our children don't inherit me and feelings

I attract a conversation not bein' addressed in black families

The devastation hauntin' generations and humanity

They raped our mothers then they raped our sisters

Then they made us watch then made us rape each other

Psychotic torture between our lives we ain't recovered

Still livin' as victims in the public eyes who pledge allegiance

Every other brother has been compromised

I know the secrets every other rapper sexually abused

I see 'em daily buryin' they pain in chains and tattoos

So listen close before you start to pass judgement on how we move

Learn how we cope whenever his uncle had to walk him from school

His anger grows deep in misogyny

This is post-traumatic black families and a sodomy today is still active

So I set free myself from all the guilt that I thought I made

So I set free my mother all the hurt that she titled shame

So I set free my cousin chaotic for my mothers pain

I hope Hykeem made you proud 'cause you ain't die in vain

So I set free the power of Whitney may she heal us all

So I set free our children may good karma keep them with God

So I set free the hearts filled with hatred keep our bodies sacred

As I set free all you abusers this is transformation

Beth Gibbons：

I wish I was somebody

Anybody but myself

Ooh I wish I was somebody

Anybody but myself

You did it I'm proud of you

You broke a generational curse

Say "Thank you dad"

Thank you daddy thank you mommy thank you brother

Mr. Morale

Before I go in fast asleep love me for me

I bare my soul and now we're free