Several Years (Explicit) - Sik World

Lyrics by：jonathon quiles

Composed by：jonathon quiles

Lately all I feel is pain

Feels like my heart doesn't beat the same

I wanna give up and I just feel

Stuck in a life that I know I cannot change

I'm really lonely and feel drained

Sometimes I feel like a mistake

I just sit and dwell in my trauma

My life's full of problems

I feel like I might break

Tried to move on but I just can't

Breakdown after breakdown and somedays

I wish I could run away just to escape

And feel at ease even if it means one day

Where did my life go wrong

I was a happy teen and now I'm an adult

Who's sad as hell and always at a loss

No one could tell I'm drowning in my thoughts

I'm still lost tryna find purpose

After all these years I'm still searching

Hope you forgive me for being a burden

Self-love is something that I'm still learning

And I know I lie when I tell you I'm fine

'Cause nobody knows I'm struggling inside

Sorry if you see me cry

It's just I finally realized

It's been several years

Since I felt okay I'm losing my way and

It's been several years

Since I've been on meds I still feel depressed and

It's been several years

Since I felt alive there's no tears to cry and

It's been several years

Since I had a friend they came and went

Lately I feel so depressed

Tried to get help but I'm still a mess

I don't ever rest I guess I'm stressed

Got my head down hands gripping on my neck

Did I take my last breath

Did I walk my last step

I'm alive but inside I am dead

Look I lied I'm not fine 'cause my mind is a wreck

I saw pictures of me in elementary

I don't remember teachers ever telling me

I'd be an adult who senses people's energy

Being an empath attracts those who lack empathy

When I look back my past shows me bad memories

Plus it's so sad I had to withstand everything

All for my last ex d**n thought you'd stand next to me

You stabbed my back and that hurt me bad mentally

It definitely changed me but I forgive you

I understand now that you had your own issues

Your fear of abandonment really convinced you

That you weren't enough for the love I would give you

I tried but I broke myself tryna fix you

And I feel hurt that you couldn't commit to

Me or the love I would give you

Nobody knows what I been through

It's been several years

Since I felt okay I'm losing my way and

It's been several years

Since I've been on meds I still feel depressed and

It's been several years

Since I felt alive there's no tears to cry and

It's been several years

Since I had a friend they came and went