Diary Of A Trying Man - Dax

Lyrics by：Daniel Nwosu Jr./Alex Nour

Composed by：Daniel Nwosu Jr./Alex Nour

Produced by：Lex Nour

I keep trying to move on

I GPS all my thoughts

But they lead me to places

That gon hurt me inside

I've been trying to stay strong

But when the memories spawn

I gotta chase em with whiskey

Cause they run on my mind

Can't turn the radio on

Because they only play songs

That take me back to those days

And all those late night drives

When you'd lay on my arm

Tell me what I do wrong

And I would look in your face

And say but girl I try

I'll try I tried I tried to be

The man that you wanted

But I couldn't provide

21 I was young dumb living

Chasing dreams

Trying to go from a boy to a man

I gave my heart to a pretty little demon

Who was asking for the world

And a Disney romance

She valued money

Not the substance that I had

I was building for the future

But she couldn't understand

That a diamond only shines

Overtime under pressure that's applied

From my disciplined hand

She let me go then she moved away

Said she could do better

And I was a man she could replace

Said I wasn't worth it and the memories

That we had made was just wrong time wrong place

And all a mistake

I keep trying to move on

I GPS all my thoughts

But they lead me to places

That gon' hurt me inside

I've been trying to stay strong

But when the memories spawn

I gotta chase em with whiskey

Cause they run on my mind

Can't turn the radio on

Because they only play songs

That take me back to those days

And all those late night drives

When you'd lay on my arm

Tell me what I do wrong

And I would look in your face

And say but girl I try

I'll try I tried I tried to be

The man that you wanted

But I couldn't provide

Now I'm moving at a different pace

Don't blame me for moving on

Because you couldn't wait

You left to find yourself

And found out what we had was great

Our cities way too small

To act like we ain't never date

And now your banging on my line

I ain't calling you back

You used to race all on my mind

Now my life's on track

You ain't gon waste no more of my time

Cause I'm not that man

You knew from the past

That gave you a chance

You used to think that it was all a game

Looking back girl

I think that I'm the one to blame

I'm setting boundaries

I'm not the same

Don't call cause I blocked you on everything

And if I ever come across your mind

I hope you think about those late night drives

And tell yourself I didn't deserve those lies

Those words those fights

I tried I tried

I keep trying to move on

I GPS all my thoughts

But they lead me to places

That gon' hurt me inside

I've been trying to stay strong

But when the memories spawn

I gotta chase em with whiskey

Cause they run on my mind

Can't turn the radio on

Because they only play songs

That take me back to those days

And all those late night drives

When you'd lay on my arm

Tell me what I do wrong

And I would look in your face

And say but girl I try

I'll try I tried I tried to be

The man that you wanted

But I couldn't provide