Messy (Extended Version|Explicit) - TWIN XL

Had nice things but I broke 'em all

And now I'm screaming at my crystal ball

When did it get so heavy

And how the hell did I get so messy

Tunnel vision yeah I shut you out

Yeah I'm sorry that I let you down

When did it get so heavy

And how the hell did I get so messy

The sun is up but I just don't wanna face it

I found my phone but I lost my motivation

Took all my big dreams and threw 'em in the basement

20-something yeah I'm running out of options

Running from these demons in my old Doc Martens

Mixing all my problems up with grenadine

I try but I just can't get it right

Had nice things but I broke 'em all

And now I'm screaming at my crystal ball

When did it get so heavy

And how the hell did I get so messy

Tunnel vision yeah I shut you out

Yeah I'm sorry that I let you down

When did it get so heavy

And how the hell did I get so messy

I keep my medication underneath my pillow

Anxiety hanging over my head just like a halo

I'm too afraid to see the world so I just lay low

I lay awake and try to tell myself a story

But even all my fantasies are pretty ****ing boring

That's why I fill my cup and I feel it in the morning

I try but I just can't get it right

Had nice things but I broke 'em all

And now I'm screaming at my crystal ball

When did it get so heavy

And how the hell did I get so messy

Tunnel vision yeah I shut you out

Yeah I'm sorry that I let you down

When did it get so heavy

And how the hell did I get so messy

And how the hell did I get so messy

When did it get so heavy

And how the hell did I get so messy

Had nice things but I broke 'em all

Now I'm screaming at my crystal ball

When did it get so heavy

And how the hell did I get so messy