I remember this afternoon

When my sister came into the room

She refused to say how my father was

But I knew he'd be dying soon

And I was oh so glad and it was oh so sad

That I realized that I despised this man I once called father

In his hanging on with fingers clutching

His body now just eighty-eight pounds

Blinded eyes still searching for some distant dream

That had faded away at the seams dying alone naturally

I was his favorite child I had him a little while

Just as long as I could play the piano and smile a little smile

Just when I needed him most he was already a ghost

And for all my life there where promises

And they always have been broken

Leaving me alone with all my troubles

Not ever once touching me and saying

Daughter I'll help you get over

Now he's fading away and I'm glad to say

He's dying at last naturally

It's a very sad thing to see that my mother with all her heart

Believes the words that the Bible said 'til death do us two part'

For her that was forever and ay he decided her night and day

How could some English words so small affect someone so strangely

Taking her away from us her soul included

She might es well be gone with him all the children are excluded

Loneliness is hell I know so well

For I'm alone naturally

I waited three weeks for him to die

I waited three weeks for him to die

Every night he was calling on me I wouldn't go to him

I waited three weeks for him to die three weeks for him to die

And after he died after he died every night I went out

Every night I had a flight it didn't matter who it was with

'Cos I knew what it was about and if you could read between lines

My dad and I close as flies I loved him then and I loved him still

That's why my heart's so broken

Leaving me to doubt God in His mercy

And if He really does exist then why does He desert me

When he passed away I smoked and drank all day

Alone again naturally