And you are more than just a memory the source in my identity

The hope in our heredity be coursing through our legacy

My fortress at the mercy to the forces of the enemy

So listen to the misery I pour into the melody

Christa something's wrong with me I'm losing my autonomy

I feel the devil wandering and ripping out song in me

A godless odyssey and honestly it's haunting me

My cardiac is hardening quality is darkening

A sinner dreads up upon his prison bed

Listen to his heart it feels as if the rhythm's dead

Weak like Delilah slipping scissors in his dreads

Redirect the breath of God to you so you could live instead

I thank God you never had to ponder

What it's like to live a life with an absent father

Accept my offer access my heart's wish

Watch every single color pass into scarlet

Now do me a favor baby shoot me a wager

And prove to me your confidence in hope ain't endangered

Loosely insane words I spew on this paper

Aimed at liberation but ain't soothing the anger

God I need you tell my sister

All I feel is that I miss her

Swings and slides turn rings of fire

My sights on the lights in the sky now fly

Christa watch me fly Christa watch me grow

Sister watch me triumph Sister watch me flow

These walls don't talk but they cry every night

I fight to survive but I die every time

I'm so happy and I thank the academy

For laughing as I play a man who battles for his sanity

There isn't any breath in me left

This is the true definition of identity theft

The sun above my head projects the pain within my shadow

The rain will spur the shame and pave the way in which I travel

Engraved upon my brain's your name; I need you here now

I take the time to pray so I could feel you near now

Scared to show my heart in fear that people might be sick of me

I know enough to know that you'd accept my inconsistency

Tell me that I'm loved and break it to me that I'm selfish

Embellished in my misery and only you could help it

Help me in my struggle in controlling my dysfunction

Help me as I recklessly indulge in my destruction

So hold me from this evil feeble folding to seduction

Lies I put my trust in; I love that I am nothing

Wait I hate that I am nothing And if only you were breathing

You'd be my freaking reason for the smile in which I sleep with

I need your reassurance when my hope has been defeated

So tell me I'll be fine and I don't care if you don't mean it