SONIA (Explicit) - Jamila Woods/Nitty Scott

Lyrics by：Jamila Woods/Nitzia Scott

Composed by：Jamila Woods/Nitzia Scott

Once upon a time little girl on the grind

Met a boy he was nice at the time

Weeks from the days plans they were made

Soon you could call them an item

Funny how a title makes them think they own you

Tellin' you how to dress and who to talk to

Fella please don't nobody ask you

My great great granny was born a slave

She found liberation before the grave

Who you tellin' how to behave

Ooh I'm trying to forgive but can't forget

It was bad it was bad

It was bad it was bad

It was the crying that was bad

It was the crying that was

It was the lying that was bad

It was the lying that was

It was the blaming that was bad

It was the blaming that was

The self-hating that was bad

The self-hating that was

It was the waiting that was bad

It was the waiting that was

It was the doubting that was bad

It was the doubting that was

It was the screaming that was bad

It was the screaming that was

The fear of leaving that was bad

The fear of leaving that was

Uh uh uh yo

Once upon a time I believed in lines

Like I just wasn't good enough for you and other lies

Mr. didn't miss the water 'til the well was dry

Tried and I tried compromise compromise

It was pouring into you while emptying me

It was rationalizing all your toxicity

It was hands around my neck with us on my back

It was pressure pain and panic attacks

Had me faded to the wire putting out my fire

Use to have requirements that turned into desires

Expected to retire me while keeping you inspired

All the women in me are tired

Listen n***a

My abuela ain't survive several trips around the sun

So I could give it to somebody's undeserving son

This p***y don't pop for you booty don't bop for you

Never owe none belong to no one

Now I only trust patterns not apologies

First date questions what's your ideologies

Do you love yourself

Are you healing your trauma

What's your concept of wealth

Do you check on yo mama

'Cause your loyalty ain't slavery sis

That s**t insulting to her bravery sis

I know you tangled

But this life is no exchange for your laboring sis

Withhold ya flavors he unsavory sis sis

I remember saying no to things that happened anyway

I remember feeling low the mirror took my face away

I couldn't recognize her I laid and cried 'til my

Tears washed the kitchen tiles I swear I couldn't budge

But then I talked about it 'til mama sister cousin

Told me they went through it and since it's in my blood

I knew I could do it 'cause if my blood went through it

I knew I could endure it I knew that I could heal it

Oh I'm trying to forgive but can't forget

It was bad it was bad

It was bad it was bad

It was the crying that was bad

It was the crying that was

It was the lying that was bad

It was the lying that was

It was the blaming that was bad

It was the blaming that was

The self-hating that was bad

The self-hating that was

It was the waiting that was bad

It was the waiting that was

It was the doubting that was bad

It was the doubting that was

It was the screaming that was bad

It was the screaming that was

The fear of leaving that was bad

The fear of leaving that was