4:44 (Explicit) - Jay-Z

Written by：Shawn Carter/Dion Wilson/Kanan Keeney

Do I find it so hard

When I know in my heart

I'm letting you down everyday

Letting you down everyday

Why do I keep on running away

Look

I apologize often womanize

Took for my child to be born

See through a woman's eyes

Took for these natural twins to believe in miracles

Took me too long for this song

I don't deserve you I harass you out in Paris

Please come back to Rome you make it home

We talked for hours when you were on tour

Please pick up the phone pick up the phone

Said don't embarrass me instead of be mine

That was my proposal for us to go steady

That was your 21st birthday you mature faster than me

I wasn't ready so I apologize

I've seen the innocence leave your eyes

I still mourn this death I apologize for all the stillborns

'Cause I wasn't pressing your body wouldn't accept it

I apologize to all the woman whom I

Toyed with you emotions because I was emotionless

I apologize 'cause at your best you are love

And because I fall short of what I say I'm all about

Your eyes leave with the soul that your body once housed

And you stare blankly into space

Thinking of all the time you wasted in on all this basic sh*t

So I apologize

I'm never gonna treat you never gonna treat you like I should

I apologize our love was one for the ages and I contained us

And all this ratchet sh*t and we more expansive now

Meant to cry and die alone in these mansions

Or sleep with our back turned

We're supposed to vacay 'til our backs burn

We're supposed to laugh 'til our heart stops

And then we end a space with a dark stop

And let love light the way

Like the men before me I cut off my nose to spite my face

I never wanted another woman to know

Something about me that you didn't know

I promised I cried I couldn't hold

I suck at love I think I need a do over

I will be emotionally available if I invited you over

I stew over what if you over my sh*t

I'm never gonna treat you never gonna treat you like I should

And if my children knew I don't even know what I would do

If they ain't look at me the same

I would prolly die with all the shame

You did what with who

What good is a ménage à trois when you have a soulmate

You risked that for Blue

If I wasn't a superhero in your face

My heart breaks for the day I had to explain my mistakes

And the mask goes away and Santa Claus is fake

And you go online and see

For Blue's tooth the tooth fairy didn't pay

I'm never gonna treat you like I should