Nightmare Being 19 - Bea and Her Business

Lyrics by：Andrew Jackson/Bea Wheeler/Edward James Carlile

Produced by：King Ed

I got this crippling fear of being average

In this perfect world

Like it's me versus all of these

Sexy and confident girls

I'm so awkward embarrassing

Everyone's on something

I'm such a loner in here

These bodies are paper thin

It makes me hate my skin

Wanna disappear

I'm honestly scared right now

I feel like a child left out

On my own being weird at the party

Everyone's kissing everybody

When is a polite time to leave

When did life escalate

And when did my friends all change

Now I don't recognize anybody

So damn lonely

It's a nightmare tryna be

It's a nightmare trying to be 19

Weird how I used to be happpy dressed up as myself

Right now I'd pay to be just about anyone else

I'm red-faced and fumbling

The perfect mannequin

Model the thoughts of my peers

A copy and paste it girl

Done tryna to save the world

Just tryin' my best to fit in

I'm honestly scared right now

I feel like a child left out

On my own being weird at the party

Everyone's kissing everybody

When is a polite time to leave

When did life escalate

And when did my friends all change

Now I don't recognize anybody

So damn lonely

It's a nightmare tryna be

It's a nightmare trying to be 19

I don't know what to do with this

Hanging on by my fingertips

I bet they all think I'm a freak

It's a nightmare tryna be

It's a nightmare trying to be 19

Everybody else got a plan

I don't even know who I am

Is there something wrong with me

It's a nightmare tryna be

It's a nightmare tryna be 19