You called yesterday to basically say

That you care for me

But that you're just not in love

Immediately I pretended

To be feeling similarly

And led you to believe I was ok

To just walk away from the one thing

That's unyielding and sacred to me

Well I guess I'm trying to be

Non chalant about it

And I'm going to extremes

To prove I'm fine without you

But in reality

I'm slowly losing my mind

Underneath the guise of a smile

Gradually I'm dying inside

Friends ask me how I feel

And I lie convincingly

Cause I don't want to reveal

The fact that that I'm suffering

So I wear my disguise

'Til I go home at night

And turn down all the lights

And then I break down and cry

So what do you do

When somebody you're devoted to

Suddenly just stops loving you

And it seems they havent got a clue

Of the pain that rejection

Is putting you through

Do you cling to your pride

And sing I will survive

Do you lash out and say

How dare you leave this way

Do you hold on in vain

As they just slip away

Well I guess I'm trying to be

Non chalant about it

And I'm going to extremes

To prove I'm fine without you

But in reality

I'm slowly losing my mind

Underneath the guise of a smile

Gradually I'm dying inside

Friends ask me how I feel

And I lie convincingly

Cause I don't want to reveal

The fact that that I'm suffering

So I wear my disguise

'Til I go home at night

And turn down all the lights

And then I break down and cry

Well I guess I'm trying to be

Non chalant about it

And I'm going to extremes

To prove I'm fine without you

But in reality

I'm slowly losing my mind

Underneath the guise of a smile

Gradually I'm dying inside

Friends ask me how I feel

And I lie convincingly

Cause I don't want to reveal

The fact that that I'm suffering

So I wear my disguise

'Til I go home at night

And turn down all the lights

And then I break down and cry

Well I guess I'm trying to be

Non chalant about it

And I'm going to extremes

To prove I'm fine without you

But in reality

I'm slowly losing my mind

Underneath the guise of a smile

Gradually I'm dying inside

Friends ask me how I feel

And I lie convincingly

Cause I don't want to reveal

The fact that that I'm suffering

So I wear my disguise

'Til I go home at night

And turn down all the lights

And then I break down and cry

Well I guess I'm trying to be

Non chalant about it

And I'm going to extremes

To prove I'm fine without you

But in reality

I'm slowly losing my mind

Underneath the guise of a smile

Gradually I'm dying inside

Friends ask me how I feel

And I lie convincingly

Cause I don't want to reveal

The fact that that I'm suffering

So I wear my disguise

'Til I go home at night

And turn down all the lights

And then I break down and cry