The sudden realization that not all is what it seems

Rises somehow exponentially

It turns from a cry into a wail

Then a scream and then a howl

An endless broken dull soliloquy

Pain can force the hand and turn the mind

The pictures taint the judgement every time

Then i turn around and see a wreck strewn on the road

The pictures and the pain you'll never know

The pictures and the pain that i was good enough

To keep from scarring you

Some things are meant for you and you alone

And so i add more fuel to the fire

And try to find an answer in the pyre

At first the flames a comfort but the smoke gets in the eyes

There's only so much left that one can burn

And now i find i'm dancing 'round the ashes of the bridges that i've burned

I take nothing from the lessons that i've learned

And so the wheel relentlessly goes round

Just cuts the rut a little deeper down

This youthful smile has turned into a frown

The eyes forever down

The spark forever drowned

I'll sing as i go

I've learned well that it's best not to know

And i use up the last of what's left

In a vain effort just to forget

This arm contracts as it's pulled

It's disturbing the calm of the pool

I am lost in this mournful refrain

While re-analyzing this stain

This tainted wreck of lies again

And if what you said is true

I'm condemned to repeat 'till i'm through

Least until i can learn to forget

Or learn simply not to notice

And this dream i could weep

So profoundly i finally could sleep

Undisturbed by the demons and shades

And this endless cycle of betrayal

Oh how we fell

And how is one supposed to mourn if one is not entirely sure what has died

And if it's dead and if it's dead and if it's dead and if it's dead why can't i cry

And all the things you told me that you read upon my palm they were lies

Say that they were lies