Ceiling Gazing - Mark Kozelek

Laying in my bed ceiling gazing

Wide awake with jet lag from Australia

Got a stack of mail a wedding invitation

From a new young relative I've never even met

Got me thinking about my grandpa for some reason

Met him half a dozen times in the nursing home

Last time I saw him he was in a box

They were lowering him into the ground

St Mary's church stood so high

It was the first and the last time I saw my dad cry

The ground had a thin coat of snow

And I wandered off in the cold

It's three forty seven AM June thirteenth

It's my sister's birthday today I think

I wanna give her a call see how she's doing

She had a rough divorce I hope she's improved

I want to reach out and give her my love

Put a smile on her face like when we were young

Listening to records from the library

Hermit of mink hollow and dreamboat Annie

She lives with her daughters all alone

Across the street from a cornfield in Ohio

One's four one's seven and I love them so

I want to live a long time and see them grow

Outside my window tonight Sausalito's twinkling lights

My love's beside me deep asleep

The dog is laying between my feet

Outside my window tonight

The cargo ships are cruising

And I'm so happy to be alive

To have these people in my life

Laying in my bed ceiling gazing

Can't make my mind stop from racing

It's not good or bad it's just how God made me

To lay awake at night ceiling gazing