Pathways (Explicit) - Mic Righteous

Composed by：Mic Rightous

Which way will I take

Which road will bring me back to hope

My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be

Which way will I take

Which road will bring me back to hope

My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be

To my family dearest

I won't be here by the time that you hear this

I took the nearest pack of painkillers

And I've never been so serious

And babe I know the chances are

You'll probably find this first

And if you're reading this

I'm sorry I'm typing my final words

I hope no I know you'll end up hating me

With every single fibre

You have inside of your nerves

I left you with a baby maybe

I should have tried for her

But trust me all I've done is

Get in the way of a life you deserve

How can I live to look you in the eye knowing

You've got to scrape by with

The money you have inside of your purse

My career isn't paying so why

Am I trying to write a verse

I can't support our little angel

In this unstable line of work

And without you by my side

I'm done with my time on earth

I'm feeling my life's a curse

If I'm here the cycle turns

My examples of what not to do

When growing up is how I've learned

So don't let the children hear this

So they know what life is first please

Which way will I take

Which road will bring me back to hope

My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be

Which way will I take

Which road will bring me back to hope

My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be

My dear kids

I don't know how to start this

Your dad's a **** up a stupid ****ing bastard

A stupid ****ing arrrrgh

I'm supposed to be a parent

Can't say goodbye without getting pissed off and swearing

And it's okay if you hate me

I wouldn't like me either

I didn't want to do this

I didn't want to leave ya

But mummy said I'm useless and

I'm starting to believe her

I hope you're ****ing happy *****

I wish I didn't meet ya

I never wanted this

I didn't want to quit

I'm sorry kids but I don't want to live

I got nothing to offer

I wish I had a lot to give

Wish I didn't have such a ****ed up

Family when I was a kid

I wish God had given me a brain

I wish I wasn't in pain

I wish this vodka could wash it away

What can I say

In another life we might meet

Just promise that you won't be like me

Which way will I take

Which road will bring me back to hope

My thousand pathways so far

From where I wanna be

Which way will I take

Which road will bring me back to hope

My thousand pathways so far

From where I wanna be

What the **** am I doing here

Why is my crib candlelit

And where's my ****ing phone

I need to call an ambulance

If I ****ing die here

I ain't coming back from it

Open your ****ing eyes close your

Everything's going black

I think it's actually happening

What a ****ing change

And this is just an accident

I love my family so much

Can't live to see my dad upset

Need to be there for my little daughter

I thought I coulda brought you happiness

My brother's in prison

I'm supposed to visit

When the screws bring him the news

How's he gonna handle it

He just wants me to succeed

I don't need this rappin' ****

I've been taking tablets for weeks

The last time I saw my sister

I freaked out and smashed her whip

Threw her down a set of stairs

And since then I haven't slept

Told myself my life wasn't supposed to happen yet

I can't maintain or manage this

Am I paranoid or passionate

We all suffer deep down

Inside we're all battlin' but don't want to admit it

We're blind to what we're damaging

Anger is contagious

And they just blame the ****

But I've always felt like

This even before I had a spliff

Just too ashamed to say it

To your face because I'm a man and ****

And that ain't masculine

And I find this kinda embarassing

****ing baffling

Every relationship I've ever had has had a tragic end

When it was only just beginning

'Cause mum you ****ed me up

And now I have no trust in women

I'm just waiting for my girl to cheat

That's how little trust is given

I can't make my girl a single mum

That's ****ing unforgiving

I love you to the moon and back

So we ain't married yet

There ain't a day that goes by where I don't imagine it

You looking fire in the baddest dress

Carrying our little madam in the back of the chariot

While I admire your fashion sense

That's the life I had in mind

I applied for this

I don't wanna die

Now panic's set in

Goodbye to everything I haven't said

Which way will I take

Which road will bring me back to hope

My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be

Which way will I take

Which road will bring me back to hope

My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be

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