October Birds - Flower Face

Where'd the October birds go

I used to watch them from the window

When I had eyes to see when

I was more like me

Where did your rosy face go

When did your cheeks get so hollow

Is it just a reflection of me

Did I hurt you so badly

I want to be good but the moment I see

That runaway bride on the train headed east

I want to be like her

I want to be free

She lifts her dress and she runs into the street

But I've never seen a staircase without dreaming of falling

I'm the flinch in your cheek

I'm the shake in your hands and

I've laid here before and

I'll lay here again

And I haven't seen war but

I've tasted the sand

I've died five hundred times with your flag in my hand

And I've never seen a river without dreaming of jumping

Call me lucky and spoiled

I'm selfish and awful

I wake and I want more

I go to sleep needing you over and over

I take what you give me

No man is an island

I'm the girl on your shoreline washed up and heaving

Pathetically breathing

I cling to your sleeves and

I stop you from leaving October birds

Singing and wedding bells ringing tied to the altar

I'll keep you forever

Don't let me down easy you're in me too deeply